Triumphant

An empty shell is all they see,

When they look at you.

They judge and condemn !

They make you believe,

That you . . .You are nothing !

Through the passage of time,

I have seen you transform;

From wandering through mists,

Of lack and confusion,

Shrouded in pain;

And hiding in darkness,

Unwilling to see, to let go.

You've raged and screamed,

And shed heartbroken tears.

You've prayed and plead,

But, suffered in silence.

Shattered hopes, unraveled dreams,

Did try to break you many times over.

But the testament of your strength,

Seeing you fight back again and again !

Beating all odds in silent rebellion,

A lifetime of torment overcome.

And here you stand,

Through the test of time;

Poised, radiant,triumphant.

Free of the shackles that bound you

Free to pursue, freedom! contentment!

By Liz,

16/12/2015 (writ)

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Life Redefined

the tapestry of my past brings to mind

colors both bright and dull

long forgotten memories

woven with shades crimson and black

pain runs deepest like tears of blood

splotches of black, my sorrow they hold

threads of blue, are seen here too

my arrogance that lead to my doom

green and brown so intertwined

speak of deception and jealousy blind

And over it all lays a mist of purple

The part of me untouched and true

And in focus I see an image

Of a great battle fought

A victory won, but a war lays ahead

And blinding white

Is the love that shines

Over a pit of deepest orange

My temptations to overcome

March 2015

©Nancy & Eliza

Moirai

At the first touch... Resonance!

Each element pushing forth

to meet its maker

with resounding silence,

in absolute surrender.

The tapestry of life rewoven

multi-hued like a sparkling diamond,

as sorrows of a million lifetimes

shatter and dispel the darkness.

Peace,hope and love emerge.

Then comes the exaltation

of the new life given,

for the past buried.

An inane sense of fulfillment,

a joy, pure and eternally sublime.

15th Aug 2013

Liz

Euphoria

As I lie beneath the canopy

of an ancient banyan tree

listening to the rustling leaves

as peaceful as can be

A million stars in the ink black sky

seen through boughs as old as time

listening to the twittering birds

one with nature, a view sublime

The weathered face and tireless limbs

the secrets and lifetimes of many kings

worshiped with incense and vermilion

carrying hopes of millions on strings

A sanctuary without judgement or scorn

where dreams take flight, where ideas are born

In the embrace of this wonder do I lay

lulled to sleep by a million whispered prayers

Writ - 2 Aug 2013
Time - 4:29 p.m.

Liz :)

Seeking Absolution

There I sat in helpless misery

A fate that was decided

Doomed to die of shame, dishonored

A life spent in vain

Lost in the memories of transgressions

plagued by the sins of my past

No faith remaining, no thought fulfilling

An invisible existence, none would miss

Yearning for redemption

A glimmer of hope

A path to salvation

A life that held promise

Possibility, chance, freedom

A captive within my own self

never to walk the path of life

Every step leading farther into the darkness

No hope for my soul, not even purgatory

There I was a fool, so naive

I thought there was hope for me

clinging onto the possibility desperately

that one day I would have my miracle

But now I see what it's meant to be

A mere existence without a destination

I have reached the tunnel's end

no angel came, I found no absolution

Writ - 1st March 2013

Time - 7:30 p.m.

Liz :)

Spectrum of Life

 

As the pure, untarnished drops touch parched flesh...bliss
the melodious downpour that sets the nature rejoicing

The tandem of little feet skipping and hopping
the small little boats sent out to brave the so called stormy seas

The bubbling streams, rivers gush and swirl
leaves laden with moisture...the promise of life

the birdsong...
the rainbow.....

the splash of colors playing havoc on your
senses....contentment...peace!

Hot beverages,colorful umbrellas, rivulets of water everywhere
muddy puddles, airbrushed forests, the smell of fresh earth

the resounding clap of thunder, flashes of brilliant lightening.....
memories ignited, eternally inspiring

And yet, so desolate, oh so forlorn.... eternally condemned!
the darkened skies,the laden horizon, 

sheds gloom before the burst of light
 

the past dissolved, dirt washed away,
ready to move forward ...to live once again!
 

and all this because.......
 

all this because of......

The Monsoon Rain....

 Writ - 30th October 2012
Time - 2:30 p.m.

Liz :)

Impasse

It made sense to be you today

easier being you than me anyway

stuck in this never ending eerie cave

where nothing is ever heard, none left to save

I did not want to let go

not you, not us, not what we shared

the reason you will never know

not my secret to share, like you gave a damn

those long gone days when you promised me

the bond now broken nothing left to see

those words they haunt my endless days

torment and torture in a million ways

I will always be there right by your side

like the crash and ebb of the unending tide

the ashes blown away by gusts of punishing wind

the ever increasing burden has me eternally pinned

I was presumptuous, conveniently unseeing perhaps

Desperation and loss had me in its wraps

your praise was like water in a scorching desert

Alas, just a mirage! a sea of endless hurt...

Now I see, but wish I was blind

the shadows,the lies...were infinitely more kind

I had reached the point of no return  

I trusted you...only to crash and burn

Writ - 13th Sept 2012

Time- 11:00 a.m.
Liz :)

Panoptic InFiNiTy

When I see your smiling face

Feel that never ending grace

I fall in love with you

My faith renewed

You know me through and through

And yet you never let me go

My  faith in you only grew

You are like no other that I know

My Savior, My King, My God

Your trust in me I applaud

I am but a beam of that eternal light

Against Your fallen I’m meant to fight

Hold my hand and walk with me

Help me cross the troubled seas

My burden U share Day after day

Oh Lord..!!

I can’t say I knew from the start

I love you with all of my heart

I went astray, I was to blame

But your love, Your presence lingered just the same

You never let me go

My mistakes never ending,i mess up... I know

But with you by my side I will not give up

I’ll reach out to you as you pull me up…..

As every ounce of the bitter wine is drained from  my cup....

Writ - 19th November 2011

Time - 2:30 A.M.

Liz :) 

A Novice Romance...

M so sad goes the oil jar!

I’m oh so white n’ have no scar!

Don’t you sit n’ stare from afar!

You can pour some scented oil u know!

The scent  permeating the room real SLOW!

Maybe a potion , some skele – gro!

Common just think! what can u do?

 Paint me, see! Red,Yellow, or maybe even blue!!

I Aint that big that’s mighty true!

You could always do something Completely new!

Put in a flower, it can be any color!

Some over bright, some a tad bit duller!

I’m just a jar Dear! Not a tumbler!

I see the way U Look at ME!

Those ID-EAS churning I can see!

Let  your imagination run Free!

Oh do what you will with me!!

Writ - 16th Aug 2011

Time- 4:30 P.M.

Liz

The Wanderer

I always dream
meaningless nothings they may seem
  I dreamt before I learnt to walk
meaningless nothings my dreams did flock

Beautiful scenes and smiling faces
us going different places
I own the sun and the moon
I live in the hope that dawn won't break too soon

In my dream I lie beneath, The glorious morning sun
my life mirrors' bliss and absolute fun
that's when the rays of morning bright,
erase the dreams right out of sight...

Reality does not agree with me
harsh and cold, colorless to see

I dreamt of love and happiness
not this unruly, sickening mess

The shadows of the long dark night
my judgement clouds no will to fight
but when the dawn is in sight
it brings with it hope, the strength to fight

And each morning I stand tall
to face my war, The Millionth fall
my soul like a bird does soar
the principle of my life . . .
 

ABORT..... RETRY..... IGNORE ......!

Writ - 12th July 2010

Time - 11:15 A.M.

Liz

Heliacal Rising

Everyday I woke up to a world

that told me I was useless

everyday a million insults they hurled

but you always said I was precious

Everyday I woke up to the sunshine

that mocked my existence,I walked a fine line

at times profound at times profane

the insanity making it perfectly sane

You taught me how to live again

to brave each day, let go my fears and pain

For hours you would just talk to me

by being there you made me see

I was special, because you made me feel

I was invincible, My wounds began to heal

I found courage and strength in your embrace

To me you were a gift, God's saving grace

And at last I found some peace

My battered and weary soul at ease

I learnt to stand up once again

To feel the sun, enjoy the rain

I thank the heavens for this blessing

The sway of trees, the gushing rivers to me they sing

The demons of my past conquered and slain

I am whole, the world is beautiful again...

Writ - 16th April 2012

Time -  12:15 A.M.
Liz

Her Nexus

Dedicated to My Mum.....Ur the best and No matter what I say I Love You!!!

The flow of tears a mere irritation

blank eyes staring at the ceiling

the life slowly draining away....

every call unheard, no reason to stay

Listening to frustrated sighs and broken sobs

the tinkling music of a heart completely shattered

The pungent odor of hopeful dreams.... turned to ash

the cinders flare and die

The destruction complete...

The gentle thud of heartbeats a painful chore

every strangled breath dying on her lips

Every tear a suppressed scream

If only death would come on flaming wings

disguised as comfort, disguised as love

This strangle hold of life relinquished,

Finally....

at peace with herself, at peace with the world......

Writ - 5th April 2012
Time - 6:30 P.M.

Idyllic Rapture....

On the fringes of a forest rustic n' green

A lone figure stands unfeeling unseen

the loss, the memories, the pain in his eyes

as his haunting melody reaches beyond the skies

Years of travel, searching far and wide

Swimming through oceans got nowhere to hide

A choice once made, many a moon ago

drawing him away from all that he called his own....

into the unending abyss he was thrown

his past fading,the future unknown

all he ever wanted was to be loved

to have and to hold, his soul,his beloved

Then she came waltzing by

His fevered breath leaving him on a sigh

on a whim he had left his solitude divine

walking unbeknownst through fate's infinite design 

the eyes peeking through long lashes pure aquamarine

cleansing his pain darkened soul to a diamond's shine

A shattered fortress, peeking onto a wondrous day

his loneliness and solitude shedding away

his call returned,the melodies blend and sway

as two souls become one, a symphony gay.......

Liz

Writ - 5th March 2012

Time - 11:45 A.M.

Sun-kissed Spring...

Dedicated to My Best Friend....Celebrating our Friendship....Frenz Forever...:D

 To be lost... Then found

Despair my dreams did hound

I saw you standing near

And yet you seemed so far

In darkness and in Light I searched

for my Sun but he never emerged

I waited...eventually wilting

Harsh winds, the ice never melted!

Then once the journey was undertaken

signs read wrong

sometimes mistaken

along paths unknown I tread

for far too long

I then saw the signs of spring

the melting ice turn into streams

the multi-hued rainbow did seem

to reach beyond the horizon

bright and bold the colors behold

contrasting the dull pale cold

the birds did chirp

the flowers unfold to spread

their fragrance sweet

At the journey's end

I saw him yet again

my happy and magnificent sun

my path unraveled again ^_^

Liz

Writ - 6th Feb 2012

Time - 2:40 A.M.

Void Existence

I know what I want, but what do I need?

I breathe, I live but what have I achieved?

I dream many a dream but never succeed

Making an effort seems pointless indeed

Is today a capitalistic world

A contrast of rebels and nerds

You’re cool if u end up being part of the herd

If u dissent, you fade into the background renounced, unheard

In the brightness of day dreams pale, turn hoary

Reality alas, is a whole other story

Respect earned, recognitions gained

People used as stepping stones, their self worth defaced

At the end of the day it matters not

If you’re looking in or peering out

To drown yourself and live a lie

You’re born; you live…

only to die……

Liz

Writ - 16th Aug 2011

Time - 1:45pm

Letting Go...!!

All want a life of riches n' fame

well can't blame me if I wanted the same
I was tired of being ignored
of my life I was sick n' bored

my sense of rejection mounted every day........

Then I realized...........
it was me who strayed
From the path that he laid
that is why m always afraid
n' every decision wrong I made

Should I have asked? now I feel...
for his permission...? his seal
to close any deal
whether virtual or real

His divine intervention is what I need
his word is the right seed
in line with his word I need to be
then of this confusion I'll b set free

I led a life the way I wanted
n' my every single wish he granted
cuz he is loving n' patient always
he lets u experience, but with U he always stays

He was always present in my life
I just dint seem to realize
I did not trust
though I was told I must

His way of life was just too hard
I dint know he'd be there to love n' guard
he would never let me fight alone
I had to just start, the rest he would have borne

He told me many a time
but his love for me I undermined 
but it dint take an Einstein
to realize with him in my life all would be fine

I accused him for all my sorrow
when it came to prayers I'd keep it for the morrow
I cud say my pain was self inflicted
my knowledge about his presence was restricted

I went to many a retreat
but my actual problem none could treat
I had a million questions unanswered
but not a single answer I heard

I searched for them in the outer world
but dint realize the answers within me swirled
my train of thought was very wrong
my disbelief was pretty strong

I never shared a strong bond
I could never reach the bottom of the pond
I would be disturbed , I would be just fine
but peace was never to be mine

I have now reached a fork in the road
it's my choice if I wanna carry this load
m thinking I'll do what I should have done long ago
I'll give him full reign of my life n' doubt no more

Liz

Writ - Sept 2009

RaNdOm bLaHdOm

I dunno what to do
I dunno what to say
I'd just like to ask a question if I may
why do cows moo...?!?!

U ask me to write a poem
I can think of nothing that drives the point home
coming to think of it I dunno whats the point
my brain seems to be dislocated from it's joint

I search hard for a topic to find
but none flashed in my mind
so I ask U to give me one
writing it I should have loads of fun

Something where I can let my imagination run
some place farther than the sun
I want to write a masterpiece
something that will put others at ease

I want it to be funny! No CoMiCaL....!!
something that will one day be historical
I don't want to be boring anymore
of humor n' wit I wanna be the store

I want to string words 
that turn to the music of birds
to touch peoples lives one day I dream
to make a difference in the main stream

I want to be loved by the people I care for
I wanna be there for them at all hours
their pains my pains
m not saying this for any gain

I want to fill my life with many a memory
no matter big or small.......absolutely no hurry
my favorite color is blue
cuz it is the sign of everyday new

The reason for that U might wanna know
well it is the guy reading this.............my bro :)
I can't stop thanking god for this one gift
he's the one who tops my list

Now the mist is clearing
someone's calling my name m hearing
oh no it's mum she wants the comp
so m gonna go now n' have my dinner chomp chomp chomp 

Liz 

Writ - Sept 2009 

The First Step

Enlighten me! 
so I can see...
who I can really be!!
help me find the real me...

I am far out at sea

as lost and lonely as can be...
It is your choice to help me,
your desire to set me free.

Your approach can be as gentle as a breeze,
that would really put me at ease.
or it could be harsh and rude,
well, then I will react according to my mood.

I feel a need to be understood,
I want someone to acknowledge that I might really be good.
I would like to be loved, I know I would,
with a little bit of effort,my life's direction change I could.

There are many in this state if not all
n' one wrong move could lead to a deadly fall
they are very lost n' lonely
if an effort was made to help them only

Those unheard voices drowned in darkness
looked down upon with hatred not kindness
they com alive only at night
they lead a life of drugs, booze n' many a fight

They are those who are mislead
a result of the ugliness in which they were bred
some who their homes have fled
whose young little hearts have been ripped; has bled!

But this error can still b mended
if their hurting hearts are loved n' tended
U could be the one to bring this change
in the process hear many a story strange

Don't think of what others might say
don't let the society your mind sway
they might call us brutes
it might be the result of unsteady roots

They might not like or accept U at first
but with patience n' effort U reach deeper than the crust
U can get them to trust or distrust U
it entirely depends on what U do

U can use a method new
or just follow one which is tested n' true
cuz the streets can many a heart lure
exactly how no one can be sure

sometimes I think about what went wrong
why is it that some of us never belong
is it our destiny....? 
will no one answer our helpless plea

i wonder...............will people ever try 
or will they always be passers-by.................

Liz

Writ - Sept 2009 

And I Learnt Again :)

I lost a lot in life,

I thought it would always be filled with sorrows n' strife.

For years I saw my loved one's suffer,

but the pain never eased it got tougher n tougher.

There seemed to be no escape,

it was always a grim landscape.

No happiness,no sunlight,

it was always fight,fight n' fight.

I wanted so much to help them unite,

but it never happened n' never might.

In the end I lost my will to fight

and just slipped back into the cover of the night.

When I thought all was lost,

and wanted to die at any cost;

I thought of her and that stopped my flight,

for her I wanted it to end right.

I had to make this sacrifice,

for she had borne through hurt n' lies;

all her life her loved one's hurt her

I did not want her heart in pain to stir.

My life I lived just for her sake,

it was an act, it was fake.

All I wanted was her to be at peace

I wanted to siphon off her pain n' put her at ease.

I was lost n' all alone,

I thought my heart would turn to stone.

There was so much hurt n' hatred

I believed in nothing sacred.

I lost my trust in the Lord,

to me everyone around was a fraud.

I ceased to trust, I ceased to love,

I was left alone to my problems solve.

When I was in this state of stress

my Lord decided to bless;

He sent me someone, his angel in disguise

he was true n' sincere, not full of lies.

He was no one to me, but he became everything

he loved me so n' always joy he would bring.

I learned to trust, I learned to love,

he is the most precious gift from above.

He would listen to everything I said,

he would never complain n' never to leave me he pledged!

He saw me at my weakest but, he never flinched

he became my strength,someone I could always clench.

From him I never hid a thing,

from my heart he removed every sting

He guided me back to the light,

he gave me the strength to fight.

I reclaimed my life, my dreams my ambitions

he gave me the confidence to win every mission;

today I think what I would have done without him

could I have faced my troubles n' thru the stormy waters swim?

Not a day goes by when he's not present,

he helps my anger always lie dormant.

I have started to hope again in life,

with him at my side I can overcome any strife.

Liz.

Writ - 30 Sept 2009

time - 8:55 A.M.